It's 2024, I am recovering from a bad bout of covid, and the election is tomorrow. If it weren't for my kids growing like weeds I might be tempted to think I'm in Groundhog Day.
Except, it really is different this time around. I mean the stakes are as high as ever, it appears the world is on the cusp of total collapse, and people seem more divided than ever.... but... my joy isn't wrapped up in it all. I find myself just praying eagerly for the return of the Lord, and in the meantime trying to be faithful moment by moment.
Really, the biggest thing happening in my life at the moment isn't the election, or raising my kids, or my husband looking for work. The biggest thing happening is God showing me His faithfulness. He is showing me that He is exactly who He says He is. In my weakness He is meeting me in His mercy. He is showing me such kindness in my failings.
In some ways it seems as though the hits just don't stop coming. Yet with every "hit" God is taking the punch for me and saying "If I am for you, who can be against you? He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?"
I have never seen Kyle handle the stresses of life as well as he is right now. It has been such an encouragement to my heart. He is resting in the Lord in complete joy. He even looked at me and said 'why are you stressing? God is providing. Don't you see that?' He is providing! Somehow, in th midst of Kyle looking for work, we have made more money this month than last. It boldsters my faith. Not because God would be any less of a good God if that wasn't the case, but because it is a tangible means of His grace and kindness.
I must admit though, at times I find myself more often than not saying "Lord I believe! Help my unbelief!" I am struggling in the waiting of it all. For the job, for the election, for the decisions we need to make about the kids futures. The Lord is asking me to wait on Him, and today I am doing a poor job. Oh how I want to do a good job waiting on the Lord!
So, if you are one of the few people who used to read this blog 2 or 3 years ago and somehow would see it today, you can pray for me. Can I pray for you?
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